Developments

  Apologies that it has been so long since I have done any writing here. I have been super busy with organising my travel plans. Today for example, I have spent £700 on a trekking trip to Machu Picchu and got angry with confused.com for constantly shutting down my insurance page.

  Much is as always, changing. I can't even contemplate the changes I am going to go through with my life this year, from work to living in Wales to 40 degree weather and then diarrhoea, kangaroos, drinking, mugging, the hall of fame, spicy food, diarrhoea again, mountain trekking, crying hysterically, angry English football fans and then I come home and go to university. Stop for a breath anyone?

  I feel so completely calm. Excited more like, and nervous of course but this will give me that last push into being a grown up that I need. Then I can look my brothers in the eye like I've had a life as well and achieved something off my own back. I can admit to myself that I am no longer lazy.

  This trip is one I'll tell my children about and I can't even believe I almost missed this opportunity, when it's going to change my life forever.

  I've been working on my Gap Year Bucket List today, and come up with some good ones. I'll release it nearer the time.

  Thanks for all the people who have been checking this still on a daily basis, means a lot to know that people are even marginally interested in what I have to say.

Cravings

  It's New Year. The time of expectations, ideals of living out dreams and promises. This year, I am treating New Year as another day. Every day is a chance to better myself, learn new things and discover more.

  I watched Cherrybomb last night, which I've wanted to for a long time. I love the stuff Rob Sheehan is in, he has this edge for being cast in cold situations with complex characteristics. In this he was a fucked up teenager living trying to support an alcoholic and substance addicted father, and he was given an opportunity to better himself, take responsibility and get on with his own life. Inevitably he fucks it up. The film was pretty average, but it sparked off this ideal that I have.

  If I'm honest, I would love nothing more than to be a bit of a fuck up. Someone with a complex life who overcomes it. To be extraordinary. I've not had any struggles really, which I am very thankful of, but I wish I was amazing.

  So it's time to seize opportunities and live life to the full, every day of the new year. Even if that means having to bust my arse of now to enjoy travelling.

  And I've been craving thrillers. I want to watch some really ghostly thrillers soon. Not sure if you were interested in that.

And I got this.