South Wilts is really getting to me today. For example, we were in the common room and it was virtually empty, so I got up on the sofa with a couple of friends and we did some shit dancing and pretended to be gansters. I think I got away with that because everyone was laughing, but as we left to rehearse we had a couple of disgusted looks from people 'better' than us. And I thought, what is your point. Because there is a certain thing that people do, purposefully waiting for you to look at them before they go:
Why? Why are you bothering with me? I wouldn't mind if they waited till I left and then said "That was lame." But why do it to my face and threaten my self confidence with it? Because you put enough girls in one place, add 7 years and hundreds of stressful exams, a few boys to fight over along the way, and we all turn into these bitchy cat fighters. I don't want to make anyone upset or hurt because I've judged them. Sometimes girls need to question their behaviour but I never want anyone to do that because of me, hell I might have them all wrong.
I guess what I've learnt today is that no one should make you feel like that when you've not done anything actually bad. Had I stabbed a teacher or cut a frog's head off, then I might understand the face. But because I danced on a sofa? Naaah... not feeling the need.
Just looking forward to people starting to act like grown ups. This is a stroppy post but there you go, I'm a bit annoyed and a bit hurt really.
Here's a funny picture of me looking fat:
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