But anyway, I need to keep calm and religiously do art this week. I just realised though that my other subjects also require work, and I want to die. To be honest, I'm so stressed I'm at train point again. (Leaping on a train and getting away, I'm enjoying my new lingo). It's just really horrible to feel out of control of something. And it's stupid, because I do this with every art unit, and it's fine, but it's so annoying.
I also feel like I'm coming down with something, I think I have an ulsa right at the back of my throat, which kills. So I keep coughing and sneezing. Attractive.
But my weekend was actually amazing, Friday night I had the best night, despite Reuben not being able to come. The music was much better than I expected, and I spent all night laughing and dancing. Only down side was when Emma kept trying to kill me by tying my dress round my neck. But I was very happy. Stumbled back to sleep, and had a really lovely double bed to share with Jessie, we were very lucky. Although having said that, I woke up with fake tan pressed into me.
Just been listening to skrillex, this video is fucking scary:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2cXDgFwE13g
Saturday night I had a really long phone conversation with someone, it's always nice to clear the air and sort some stuff out. I felt much better afterwards. And I'm really excited about stuff now. I've realised being bad isn't good. I should've known that before, concept wise, but I know now I need to stop all that pretentious shit. Because actually, I like the old Poppy, and even if no one else did, I don't care. Because it made me happy.
I've learnt a lot this year so far, mostly about myself. My friend said to me recently, that I used to be happy last year, I wasn't popular but I was a lot happier than I am now, (not that she was saying I'm popular now, but I've got more friends than before), and I thought about it for a bit, I was unhappy. Bu the thing was, that I didn't ever toss around my unhappiness like I seem to do when the least thing goes wrong nowadays. So, I'm going to prove something to myself, that I've wanted to for years. That you can changed like a switch flickering. Tomorrow's task is to think before I say absolutely anything. It's a self monitoring process till I can get it right.
And- think I might have casting sorted!! In an ideal world it would be me, Jessie, Kelly, Robin, Jess and George. I so want to get started now.
To make up for the fact I haven't blogged in ages, here's a video of me dancing:
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